Crying and weeping softly, everything seems so quiet As i lie here awake. And all the clouds above me, filling the world around me With shadings of grey. Standing before the mirror, being judged by every angle What the hell am I worth? falling and falling faster, sinking and sinking under All these thoughts in my mind. Is there someone out there that can sooth my weary soul? Is there someone out there that can heal my bleeding heart? Chorus 1: And I cry, cause there's no one here to whisper love. And I try to express the thoughts that fill my mind...but to no avail. Inside my tiny cell, trapped in the doors of hell God won't you hear my cry? I feel so suffocated, I need some air to breathe in And make me feel alive. Trying to hear you clearly, I need to feel you near me I'm desperate tonight. As you answer my plight, I look at your shining eyes I'm finally free. I can hear your sweet voice softly ringing in my ears. take me by the hand and teach me what it is to feel. Bridge: You chased the foes behind me, And broke the chains that binded me to that jail called "my home" Chorus 2: And I found out that there's someone out there who hears my cry, And I know that He understands and knows my mind. Cause I called out and he rescued me and filled my life With peace and love...Jesus you set me free.
Friday, September 7, 2007
You heard my cry
Forgive Lord
If I have wounded any soul today,
If I caused some foot to go astray,
If i have walked in my own willful way,
Dear Lord, forgive!
If I have uttered idle words and vain,
If i have turned aside from want or pain,
Lest I offended some other through the strain,
Dear Lord, forgive!
Forgive the sins I have confessed to Thee,
Forgive the secret sins I may not see,
Oh guide me, love me, and my keeper be,
Dear Jesus, Amen
Tuesday, September 4, 2007
Something better
VERSE 1 :
I saw you through the window
Curled up on your bed
I saw you start to cry
And throw the pillow over your head
It seemed as if your whole world
Had crumbled and fallen through
He said that he'd be going
But you didn't think so soon
Oh I couldn't bear to see you there so alone
And running ground
I wanted to take you in my arms
And tell you that I've found
CHORUS:
That HE always gives us something better, then what HE takes away
Yes, the heart of Heaven knows if they weren't meant to stay.
He gives in love and He gathers in love.
Oh there's always something better
Than what He's taking away
VERSE 2 :
He'll calm the throbing heart cry
And dry the stormy skies
He takes somethings away
That we may learn to look into His eyes
Though you may feel that this one is the one that's right for you
HE sees so much further than we ever do
CHORUS
VERSE 3 :
I've been where you're standing now
Walking in those shoes
I know it's hard to tust when you feel you always loose
But give it time and you will be with the perfect choice of God
There be no regrets when you look back over the mountains you have trod
CHORUS
(Me)
I sing this song to myself over and over sometimes...now it's finnally gotten deeply ingrained in my head, and I believe every word of this beautiful song.
Tuesday, August 14, 2007
The answer is on it's way
This is a song I wrote a couple of weeks ago. I will try to post a recording of it very, very soon.
Verse 1:
I've been down I've up, striving till I get to that mountain top singing.
I was lost I've been found, I was spinning around
But I know that you hear me.
Even when I felt that i just couldn't take it
You helped me carry on cause you knew I could make it.
Chorus:
So don't look down at the waves, remain strong keep the faith
And I know that you'll make ti through the storm.
He'll give you the best of the best, if you only trust and obey
And the answer is on it's way.
Verse 2:
When there's doubts in my mind, in His word I can find
Something to lift my spirit high.
All the trials and tears, will in time disappear
As we hang on to Jesus
Bridge:
Believe me when I say when your heart's broken (He says)
I'll give you anew heart if you give me the pieces.
Chorus twice
I love you all and I hope that was an encouragament to you.---Consuelo
Sunday, August 12, 2007
You are Enough!
When once I thought this void could never be filled,
You gave me a gift and so my wish fulfilled.
I wished that it would be forever true and real,
But You asked, "My love, would you give him up and in My love your faith seal?"
How could I not when You Who gave me this love asked with such loving and understanding eyes? You once gave all you had for one such as I.
So here he is, the gift which You brought into my life, I willingly give You back and thank You that in those short yet sweet months I learned and experienced true love.
And when I think the pain is just too much to bear,
You're always there to stroke my tear-stained face and lovingly comfort me saying:
"It will all pass away. It's but a test. Hold on to Me, it won't be long till you are blessed."
As time has gone by, I have come to realize,
Only in Your can this love be immortalized.
For it is You Who has given me this love,
You, who is love and loves me most of all.
Though there are times when the memories revive
And they are not so easily pushed back,
I try not to think about those things I "lack",
But humbly ask, "Do with me as You like, my dearest Love.
Help me to be brave and not look back,
To follow You and on Your promises stand.--You, my Love, are all I ever need."
During these months that I have felt torn apart,
Because my earthly love and I are apart,
You have never left my side
And with Your love I have found a new start.
Instead of trying to fill the void,
Help me to hold on to You ever closer and my times spent with You never avoid.
For You are the real love of my life. --The One I wanted and have long searched for.
Only You can heal the wounds of loss.
... For YOU truly are enough!
---Eunice
Saturday, August 11, 2007
Too much to bear? Think again!
Yesterday was a terrible day for me...I kept getting hit with more and more trials and my mind filled with doubts, and a cloud of gloom fell over me all day. I started "arguin" with The Lord asking Him if He loves me as much as He says He does, then why do I have to go through all these things and why is it sooo difficult for me to make it. And He told me this (through someone I love. Thank you Debbie for you patience with me and thank you Heather for being there for me I love you!!).
Jesus speaking:)
No matter how unfair or difficult your cross in life seems to be I want you to know that I don't ever give a cross heavier than you can handle, I never give you more than you can bear.
I'll tell you a little story:
Once there was a young girl named Karol.
In her younger years life seemed to be relatively easy for her, she never saw her cross as being too heavy and was for the most part content with it. But as she grew up she felt her cross getting heavier and heavier till one day she got fed up with the weighty cross, she was tired of it and just about ready to give it up. She wandered around looking for another cross to bear and she found a gold cross full of diamonds and rubis incrusted on it, it was a breath taking sight,so as soon as she saw it she determined it should be hers, for it was for sure much nicer than the old wooden one she had to carry. So she left her cross and went to pick the golden one up, but as she reached down for it and tried to pick it up she realized it was so heavy she couldn't even lift it on to her shoulders she tried and tried to pick it up till she gave up. It was just imposible for her to carry that one. Surely there must be another cross I could bear that could equal the beauty of this one she thought to herself. She continued looking till she caught sight of it, a beautiful cross full of roses and flowers of all types, colors and sizes, she imediately went to pick it up and sighed with relief when she picked it up and could carry it with no problems and was even lighter than her own. After carrying it for a few minutes though, she realized how much her back was hurting because of the thorns the roses had, they kept poking her back until she was bleeding. She put the cross down once again and stoped for a moment to think a bit and she came to the conclusion that her cross was not all that hard to bear, she felt happy for her own cross knowing that even though it was not beautiful like the others ones she saw other ppl carrying around, it was her cross to bear and she finally felt content and picked up her cross and carried it around with gusto. (eop)
Me(Consuelo)
Anothe example the Lord gave me was that of the story of the two man that were carrying they're crosses mainly uphill and through rough land. the second man(Tom) decided to cut his cross a bit so it wouldn't be so long and heavy, so much to the first man's(George) dismay he cut it and he kept going forward. George started thinking of doing the same, but The Lord asked him not to and He said that even though his burden was heavy and long there was a reason for it. Everything seemed to be going great for Tom and his climb seemed to be so much easier so much that Geroge started seriously doubtin what he had gotten from the Lord regarding his cross, but when he felt it was too much to handle they came across a large opening in the ground with a very long fall,it was dreary sight and there was no way of going around it. Tom was scared and puzzled, but George knew exactly what to do. He put his cross down and used it as a bridge to get across and got to his destination safely and happy.....what happened to Tom??? Well some say they have seen him trying to build a bridge to cross to the other side (for the last ten years..oops) I guess we'll never know what the final outcome for him will be. So as I said I have had to make very tough choices in the past few weeks and I've come to realize that I like my crown as hard is it to carry it sometimes...and though through making some of the "sacrifices" the Lord hasd asked me to do for Him I feel like a part of me has died (yeah the pain was that strong...I'm sure some of you have been there even more than once) I know that I will ressurect soon with Him(Jesus) really living and moving through me and that He is breaking you and me and molding us to be the vessels we need to be in order to be of use to Him. So never minimize your cross for it will be there to aid some day when u need it the most (see Tom
and Georges example)Also know that your cross wasn't given to you unfarily the Lord knows
just how much you can take and He's promised in His word He will NOT give us more than we can handle and that His grace is sufficient for us. And the word sacrifice...well I will say like David Livingston **(see end note) said in a conference on one of his very few trips to England when he was being awarded for his many sacrifices:
Sacrifice? Away with such word, such an idea. Can anything we do for the Lord be called a sacrifice when He gave up His heavenly home on high to die for you and me? So that we could live, and love. Anything we ever do or give up for HIM is only paying back a small partion fo what He sacrificed for us. Ladies and gentleman I have never made a sacrifice.** David Livingstone was an English missionary to Africa who gave his life to the Lord in order to preach to the tribes in dark Africa, facing sickness, loss, danger and forgoing all sort of luxuries and comforts of his previous life. (I love David Livingston he definetly lived what he preached).
Monday, August 6, 2007
True Love
