And though the battles have in no way lessened; and in fact they have progressively gotten stronger and tougher than before, I have come to the realization, this is only the beginning of the training ahead of those of us that choose to stand.
I wondered why I battled so, why I had to go through the excruciating pain of forsaking, or letting go and trusting blindly that He is in control—that He would make me stronger though it all. Then the answer came, through a friend (I love you Paula!) and then through a GN. “Carry the Flame of Revolution!—Will You” I will now post some excerpts from this and hope that you find something here, too.
17. He doesn’t look at the trials that you’re going through, and the tests, and the breakings, and the humblings and all the rest, as a negative in any way. He looks at it as strengthening, as training. You’re making it, you’re making the right decisions, you’re fighting through, you’re getting stronger. He has a completely different outlook on everything you’re going through.
18. The Enemy’s trying to use these battles to defeat you, but the Lord is looking at them and saying, “These are the things that make you strong.”
19. So in thinking and praying about your battles, the Lord reminded us that you’re going through it like you are because you’re important. You’re so important to the Family.
The Enemy is fighting you, but the Lord is also testing you. He’s working in your lives. He’s allowing things in your life that push you to the edge. He is even bringing those difficulties into your life Himself, because He knows they’re needed. He may have allowed you to feel the consequences of some of your choices more deeply than He has in the past. But He has to do that because it’s part of training, and it’s part of making you into what He wants you to be.
50. You need to realize that the Lord is bringing you through these things because He’s training you. He’s training you to carry on the Revolution. He is allowing you to go through experiences that bring you to tough questions, because He knows you’re going to have to have the answers to give to others later.
54. You feel absolutely horrible when you’re going through some things, especially if you know that what you’re going through is in part because you made a wrong decision, or haven’t been as obedient as you should have been. You’re humbled and broken, and have to ask the Lord’s forgiveness, and work to get back on track.
56. In other words, these things are rough to have to go through, but the difficulties make you into something that you weren’t before. They add to the substance, the deep substance, the core substance of your being, of your spirit. That is what has to happen for you to take on the roles that are ahead of you.
62. It’s very similar for you. There is a payoff for going through those deep, dark, hard experiences that sometimes take years to make it all the way through, or sometimes you go through one thing after another for years in a row. You might not see the payoff now, but you’ll see it down the line. You just have to stick with it. You have to keep doing what you know you’re supposed to do—go to the Lord, use your spiritual weapons, strengthen your faith in the Word—even when you don’t feel like you’re getting anywhere.
64. So if you feel like you’re going through an exceptionally rough time, hold on! Embrace it, because that’s what’s giving you your spiritual degree! That’s what’s qualifying you for all that the Lord has ahead for you.
84. Each of you has been through a lot in your life, and over the past year or two some of you have faced things that have turned your lives, your worlds, what you thought you knew and believed, completely upside down and inside out. Many of you are even now in the thick of a more intense fight and deeper turmoil than you ever thought you’d go through, certainly more than you felt prepared for. More than a few of you have wondered why. You’ve wondered, “What on earth is going wrong?” You’ve wondered whether you’ve made some terribly wrong choices, whether you’re in the wrong outfit, or, “What is this all about?”
86. Let Me explain some things to you about what you’re going through, and why you’re going through these things, and how I see it. You’re not only being made into men and women, you’re undergoing “the making of a champion.” A champion is far more than a mere competing athlete. A champion is far more than a mere soldier. A champion is one who combines destiny, prowess, training, and perseverance, and uses it to go farther than any others have gone or can go. A champion is one who presses forward to victory and triumph despite all odds.
93. Like the trainer of an earthly champion, I see beyond those moments when you feel that you’re being crushed and that you can’t take another breath or even move another inch forward. I see what the endurance and patience and time of holding on works in your spirit, and how it has the power to alter the future, because it empowers you to fulfill your destiny.
98. You are those who are destined to carry this flame into the future. You are My champions, and as such, you must undergo the most intensive, focused, trying times of possible training.
104. Kneel before Me, noble champions to be, and commit and entrust yourself fully to My training regimen. Do it without fear, for although the training will be vigorous, the strengthening arduous, the tests difficult, and the trials painful, they will end, and they will end in beauty, power, glory, and victory. (eoe)
I have messed up so bad, and I thought that I would not go on, yet, through it all, my precious Love has helped me move along. That He has accepted me and is still training me only makes me want to keep fighting more. He said that it’s not so much our faith that He looks at, but our love for Him; do I love Him enough to keep fighting no matter what the odds are? Will I go all the way for Him, as He did for me? I surely want to, and only with His help and your prayers will I be able to.
So, if you read this, all I ask is that you add me to your PV time and uphold me in your prayers. I want to fight along side each one of you, my dear Family in spirit and it’s my prayer that I will be privileged to do so once again.
It’s up to us, to rise to the call. It’s up to us, to take the torch and run with it. It’s up to us to live the Revolution and keep it alive. It’s up to us, to CHOOSE TO STAND.
Debbie
